It was a fine, ordinary Tuesday. I was sitting in my office, utterly engrossed in red tape, thinking that my life should be more than this.

I don’t know! I don’t know how I feel and I am okay with not knowing.

That has been my state of being for the past weeks. The being “okay” part of not knowing has been the hardest for me come to terms with. I love being in control of my emotions and life but I am learning to find the peace in the unknown. There’s nothing wrong with not knowing.

By Rautia Nakanyala

If there’s one great belief or habit I have come to unlearn this year is, feeling entitled and having an uncommunicated expectation. No one owes us anything except for the people that have made a very clear vocal commitment to us: either in friendship, relationship or family but even in commitment your entitlement is very limited. I have saved myself from so much emotional distress ever since I came to accept the fact that no one owes me anything. Sometimes, also, I expect too much from people who are limited when it comes to my expectations. Let me try and break it up for us:

Dedicated To:

My Mother, Rachel Victoria Schweickhardt: 1952/01/31-2011/09/25.

I am because of you.